a fatal cookie

Hello to everyone who visits this page my name is Joshua Devinney, you can call me josh.
I am now 16 and am depressed and suicidal going through a treatment program. my brother got expelled from school for bringing a pocketknife to school.I listen to all types of rock music. My favorite kinds are screamo and some deathmetal punk mainstream and indies. I love to write poetry. My favorite kind of poems to write about are love poems. I write about 7 a month. my latest is at the bottom. I am on xbox 360 almost everyday so feel free to come play sometime.

Staring in the sky, the moons bright glow
I look for her warmth, hoping it will show
The sound of your voice, captures my heart
How didn't i see it, it was there from the start
Your sweet lips, life's forbidden fruit
Makes me shake, from stem to root
Your soft skin, it's like a haven
My life is what, has been saven
Your feelings are what, i wish to find
it's a joyous ride, through your mind
Your soft hand, has grip of my heart
do as you wish, whatever you may want
only for you, i wouldn't mind being shot
even if i died, right there on the spot
if only you'd ask, how are you
a silly question, im great when im with you
My soul is yours, my body for the taking
your addicting beauty, leaves me shaking
I see you tonight, and i can't wait
for i present you, my life and fate

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Staring up at the rain, the gloomy night sky
I see a ray of joy, it doesn't pass me by
It's hard to talk, when i'm with you
No matter what, I seem to do
I cannot focus, when your in my sight
It tears at my heart, bite by bite
I hear your voice, I lose my seat
I feel my heart, it skips a beat
I can only dream, to feel your touch
Will it change your mind, do you notice me much
Your so very close, yet so far away
How can I convince you, to please just stay
When I think of you, my heads in a bind
I beg you to not, release my mind
Your disapointment, it's quite a hit
It's like falling down, an everlasting pit
Your so indescribable, no matter what i write
Flawless perfection, 100 percent right
As i come to a close, I say but one thing
You will never know, the joy you bring

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Looking through the window, nothing but black
Shes captured my mind, from front to back
I thought that my life,it was something I hate
I thought I was done,i'd accepted my fate
but before i could end it,you saved my life
whether from a window,or just a knife
The seconds passed,I died more inside
no one was there,to help me confide
Then you came along,though you were there b4
now i could feel it,now you were something more
Short months ago,every night was more pain
After I met you,your voice kept me sane
I have few things,I can give to you
my life being one,my soul being two
I'm in debt to you,now for everything
but not for my life, for the joy you bring
My mind fixed upon you,your soul there inside me
Its felt here in my heart,I only hope you can see
My future is blurry,my past is unclear
but this I can handle, as long as your here


this next one is my 100th poem


Talking to you,the sound is unreal.
Nothing can describe,how you make me feel.
Forgetting you would be painful,no matter why.
Just forgetting your sweet voice,would make me die.
Just knowing that our here,it brings me to life.
Can I only hope to wish,you could be my wife.
When I think of you,my whole body stirs inside.
These feelings for you,there impossible to hide.
So many emotions,you send through me.
My bounded soul,you set it free.
One thing that I fear,would kill me too.
The strenuous pain,of ever losing you.
One thing makes me mad,it's felt all the time.
Your a gift yet a burden,I only wish you were mine.
One thing hurts me,your love is not there.
It doesn't seem so,but is completely fair.
Not a fault of your own,but for sure one of mine.
It means im not good enough,for it to be there to find.
Only one thing worries me,and comforts me too.
Will I get lost in your eyes, when I finally meet you.

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