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[XGC Grey Gauss]

I have been writing off and on for years. While I'm not one to get into the poetry scene, I do realize that music with truly great lyrical content is nothing more than poetry put to instrumentals. I wrote this song shortly after returning from Afghanistan and it still means quite a bit to me.

"Home"

Was I born into this life
With a means
to survive
Was I born with nothing inside
Was I born
just to die

This part of me it eats away
everything that is possibly blessed
It slithers in and it takes control
don't really know where my emotions go
I'm living a life and feeling a peace
I'm relaxing a bit, I'm taking a seat
I'm living a lie and I'm feeling no grief
Because you've invaded my world and released this beast

I need to separate
all these feelings of regret and hate
So I alone can walk this chaotic road
Will it lead home?
I need to separate
before this feeling of apathy rapes
everything I call my own
I'm alone
Will you lead me home?

I just want to live my life not filled with strife
I just want to live my life I wanna know why
I can't just be this normal Joe
I can't just go where everyone else goes
When I need to be somewhere that feels like home
You rip it from the very pits of my soul
You'll ruin it, you'll ruin me
You ruin all that's meant to be

I need to separate
all these feelings of regret and hate
So I alone can walk this chaotic road
Will it lead home?
I need to separate
before I lose it, and I finally break
I'm clutching on, lean in and listen to what I have to say
(are we all really bound by fate?)

I need to separate
all these feelings of regret and hate
So I alone can walk this chaotic road
Will it lead home?
I need to separate
before this feeling of apathy rapes
everything I call my own
I'm alone
Will you lead me home?