Approved: Minor KOG LOU XS REQUEST TO COME HOME, PLEASE!

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KoG Lou

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I’m truly sorry for my improper behavior which caused the community pain. The pain you experienced because of my negligence is not acceptable and I’m truly sorry. I’m truly ashamed and sincerely sorry for all the pain and suffering I have caused the community. From the bottom of my heart and soul I am truly sorry. I’m not looking for understanding or forgiveness, I truly feel remorseful for the things that I have done in the past within the community. For all the embarrassment that the community and leaders had to deal with because of my lack of control and poor judgment, I can’t apologize to you enough. I know that in this community you have to have trust & respect as a priority and by my actions I showed lack of respect & trust, for that I am sincerely sorry. If I could relive those moments, I would have just walked away and never had done a thing. My inappropriate actions are not tolerated and I take full responsibility, I hold myself 100% accountable. And this is something I’m not proud of. I’m truly ashamed of my actions. I pray that in time people that had been hurt by my actions will be healed. I know it is something you will never forget, but I pray that with time it may become a little easier for you. I love this community dearly and I’m sincere when I tell you I’m sorry for wrongful actions. I wish everyone the most happiness deserves in life. Please accept my apology from the bottom of my heart and again I’m, truly sorry for all the pain, embarrassment, humiliation and anything else I caused in the community. I understand my actions were the wrong choice that night when I sent crude messages, posting videos on YouTube, lashing out at those who are closest to me, causing KoG suffering, joining a different community that I knew would fail, feeding into lies along with spreading them and mostly sorry for poaching members from XG. Throughout this whole problem that I created, I have learned so much, one being that XG is always there for you weather in or out of the community. Now that I had said that, here is my XG History.

My XG career started on July 7, 2007. I was recruited by KoG SwampFox XD on Halo 2. I ranked up to the rank of General of KoG Leviathan. When I was General I split the clan three times in three weeks of being General. I was promoted to Section Leader after a month of being a General. After the first week of being a Section Leader, I got the Three Red Rings of Death and went inactive for a month. During that month one of my generals became very friendly with a Division Leader at the time, the one that was watching my section. When I returned, that general kept going above me and going to that division leader with all their issues. I tried talking to the division leader and nothing happened. At the time I was hanging out with a bad crowd, SYN HellTank XD. He influenced me and fueled the fire and convinced me to leave with him and a bunch of others to a stupid clan that I cannot even remember the name of. I realized my mistake a week after and tired getting back into XG.

When I returned to XG in 2009, I was placed as a Sergeant under KoG FaceUp XD, XS at the time. My 360 got the Red Rings again but this time I could not afford to buy a new one, the warranty was out of date. In Nov. 2011 I bought a new 360 and became reactive as a Captain in KoG Meltdown XK. I became General of the clan and after three months I split it, or broke the curse as some have said. KoG Aries XS was my Section Leader and him and I did amazing work in the community. I made Section Leader and had active healthy clans. I ran Captains Classes and Section Basic Training. Things were going good and I was happy beyond galore, but on Aug. 11, 2012 I left XG to join vN. It stated with me just catching up with old friends that I went through the ranks with. They were not trying at first to poach me, they knew I loved XG and knew how much of a leader I was in XG. Then 1 by 1 all the upper leaders started joining the party and manipulating things, putting things into my head that didn’t make since to me. The vN leaders they influenced me the same rank vB/XS if I could bring at least 2 clans with me, so I did. I am not happy about my mistakes and my actions. *

When I left, I knew in my mind that I was making a mistake but yet I still went with it. I went with it because I thought I needed a change and I forced it upon myself, instead of seeking help from my leaders. I did some hurtful things when I left and I take full responsibility for crude messages, posting videos on YouTube, lashing out at those who are closest to me and causing KoG suffering. I also take full responsibility for the things I did when I walked out the door. Such things as spamming idiotic messages, messing with the forums I had moderator over and revolting against XG. On Sep. 6, 2012 I was diagnosed with Cancer, my life went into a panic mode and all I wanted to do was disappear. I left vN and if I was still a part of XG I probably would have stepped away due to the fact I needed to focus on my personal life. To the ones I felt I hurt the worst, I sent out a message apologizing for my actions. To some, I talked to them personally and let them know the severity of what I was going through. I wanted my family to know of what was happening.

In conclusion, the reason why I would like to return back to XG is for the fact that its family. I had been through tons the past 5 years. When I had some of my darkest days to present events, I turned to members of XG for inspiration and to keep my mind off the worst. When I was a part of KoG, before I became Section Leader, Myself and other members thought of me as a great leader. I took time and dedication to the clan. I made sure that my members or lower ranks could come to me any time if they needed help. Even members outside my clan would come to me. When I became a Section Leader, I was 100% committed to my clans. Always trying to help them out and letting them try to succeed on their own. I was extremely dedicated to helping lower ranks learn more about the community by teaching Captains Classes, sometimes three classes in one night. I would even hold a Section Basic Training for all the members in my section. That would be held once a month. When my manager asked me why I couldn’t work Sundays, I told her “I have had a commitment to an online Gaming Community for the past 5 years and Sundays are the day where we have meetings in the community.” Yes I went all nerd to my Starbucks Manager but she respected my dedication to things. To her she said I am very reliable and dedicated to the things I do/desire and that was the reason why she hired me.

I love XG and the foundation it holds, there is no other comparison gaming communities/clans that come close to XG. From it being about putting the gamer first and teaching not only leadership in the community but also teaching you it for real life. I made a mistake; I am human just like everyone here and I believe that I should be granted my FINAL CHANCE in the community. I had my second chance now please, grant me my FINAL CHANCE to show you, I am here to stay and be the leader that everyone knows I am. I will help undo what I did wrong and teach others my mistakes that way they do not do the same. If I am allowed I have one request and thats to be placed in one of KoG Aries XS clans again, I do not care what rank I am to become when allowed back. I will gladly take the rank of Recruit and work my way up like everyone else, just as long as I am in the community I will be happy again. I need my family in this time of need. If I leave or get removed from the community after giving me my FINAL CHANCE, I will never bother the community again for more chances. I shouldn’t have treated my family they way I did or said what I said to my family. I hope that you grant my FINAL CHANCE request to rejoin XG, thank you for reading this and hearing me.

Sincerely,
KoG Lou XS (AKA: Mr Lougle)
 
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